Quis custodiet ipsos custodes?
sometimes i get up really fast and feel that head rush, my heart seems to be beating faster yet weaker and my body feels like it is not mine. it starts to remind me of how it feels to faint and i start getting scared im going to faint. i start to freak out and my heart definitely begins to quicken. i eventually have to sit down and calm the fuck down because i might actually pass out. if i wasn’t so afraid and did not jump to such rash conclusions, i probably would be fine. Sadly, this seems to be how i lead my life, i will recognize a few similarities with an undesired outcome then freak the fuck out.
its really hard to see the fine line between chasing after your dreams and being selfish. i dont know if im using this to excuse myself from chasing anything, but i always feel like the things i want to do are too selfish for me to ask for.
